"ADE'S JOURNAL", 36
Cloudy With A Touch Of Sunshine is how I feel right now and I am not mincing words. As in, it is time to just do it. But as I lift my glass and pour the near frozen drink into my glass, I taste it. It is bitter and quickly spreads all around my bland tongue. How did this happen?
I am not sure, but as I crush on the hollow ice cube that raced towards my throat I crush it with white raging teeth and ease the bike taste in my mouth. Why, is still the question on my mind. I try to trap the slice of lemon that isn't making my drink taste better but worse. Eventually I do and it's so stiff and unappealing that it flies off and out of my fingertips. Now I get it, it isn't lemon but a tiny formed unripe line and to make matters worse, the waiter had sliced into the seed. This was the most beautiful looking bike tasting drink I've had in my life. How on earth could something this beautiful be so distasteful. Lucky me, I didn't order any food. My friends did and watching them eat made me smile, I taste the horrid drink Again and stop and taste the chicken that shocked me and tastes good. I decide to just stop drinking and my entire being thanked me for it. The lemon sauce did not come on time and when it did, I said the chef deserved to be chopped. It was runny and didn't look good, what is going on? This was supposed to be a five star restaurant, I watch as the waiter accepted his flaws and did not apologize. He did, sort of but I was not interested. What mattered was that I was spending quality time with my two quality friends.
Time ticks slowly as the talks all around the clock chimes and clack in my beautiful brain. Questions swing by my head and Answers are on my mind, dragging and weighing me down. Why am I so hungry, why can't I just stop? I want to run on the beach, bare foot and just watch the salty waves crash into my limbs. I love the feeling of the sheer force shoving me and trying to knock me off my feet. I hop and jump and try to dodge the waves and laugh at how childish I am. The smile makes me giddy and I fall to the floor and let the sea cover me. It pulled and swayed me towards the massive body of the Atlantic ocean, I like the fee of letting go. I enjoy the entire view, even though the salt stings my eyes. I dig my hands into the seashore and prop myself up and stop myself from becoming one with the sea. The sea disagrees and sends A Large Angry Wave My Way, I I thrown forward and spin around with my knees in my wobbly arms. It's time to end this, I quickly stand and run away from the sea to higher ground. Game over, I stand at the peak of the sand hill and stare at the blueish green sea. I will miss you.
'You seem far away', Nnoye adds.
I zoom out of the image of the sea and stare at her.
'Don't you miss it'
'Ade, what are you talking about?', Ajoke asked crushing groundnuts in her small mouth.
'We live by the sea and hardly see it's'Is the water calling you?', Ajoke asked a little scared.
'How?', I was irritated by her superstitious scare tactics.
'Why should the sea be calling you, don't go ooo'
'And you can't talk'
'What am I supposed to say, I like the Beach', Nnoye adds as she tosses multiple groundnuts into her mouth.
'You know I've craved for a beach party like... In forever'
'You attended one not long ago'
'I want us to build our own memories... Maybe I want too much, forget it'
My friends cluster around me and hug me and I give them an odd look.
'I am fine, I just want us to go to the beach'
'Eh hehn, that reminds me. The last time we were in Ajoke's house, where did you go?'
'No where'
'For two days?'
''Please don't exaggerate'
'Who is this mystery man?', Nnoye asked and Ajoke rolled her eyes.
'Must it be a man?', Ajoke asked trying not to be too obvious.
'I was on a boat cruise...'
'Alone?'
'Water calms me'
'But you don't like to go alone'
'All the time, no. Once in a while? Yes'
'Where? Which service, was it a yatch or a speed boat?'
'Nnoye, you be detective?'
'Ajoke leaf me'
'Its fine, it was a yatch and I cruised to Ilase and back'
'Nice'
'What about you Nnoye? No man...'
'Too busy trying to get my baby daddy to let me see my child, Ade?'
Nnoye's words shocked me, what is my name doing in her mouth and in the same statement that mentioned Daniel Ojora.
'What?'
'Tell Daniel to let me see my baby'
'I thought that was already resolved'
'No, he is too busy trying to impress you to care'
Nnoye was shaking with rage and I was trying to understand her.
'You two must have some sort of custody... You know what, I am not getting involved'
'But you are'
'Nnoye, stop. Ade did not tell you to get pregnant for a rich controlling maniac'
'I love him and I don't like how you two treat my love for him'
'And Daniel's love for Ade?'
'She had Henrik'
'They will forever have a Bond'
'Will you two stop'
'Why? You keep hiding your meetings'
'So I should tell you where I go'
'He named a yatch after you, while you were married'
'And did i ask for any of it?'
''Nnoye don't be selfish'
'i am the one that had his baby'
'Congrats', I say and stand up.
And walk to my fridge and get some frozen orange juice and slice of the paper pack and as the lump lands in my bowl, I get a spoon. It's like a slushy and as I taste it I cool down.
Nnoye joined me in my kitchen and Ajoke lingers on behind her.
'I am sorry'
'No you are not, in fact... Why are we friends, if you know that Daniel's relationship with me makes you uncomfortable'
'Its my baby, I miss him and...'
'I know but you have to decide, nothing you door say will make Daniel and I stop being friends. And the child you share is your business, not mine'
'I know, I'm sorry'
'No you are not and this time, I can't be bothered'
I truly did not care because she didn't care about my feelings. She mentioned Henrik as if I should be ashamed I was still close to Henrik. As if Because I loved Henrik I should stop having male friends, it peeved me but nothing more.
The silence was deafening and i chewed on the frozen orange juice, I smile.
'So Nnoye, case closed right?'
The way and manner in which Ajoke said the words made us all know it was not over.
Nnoye hugged me but I did not buy into it, call me childish but I can't be bothered.
Life is after all, a series of twisted emotions, swinging up and down like a wavelength chart. So this may cool down now, but it definitely will climb back up again.
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**"ADE'S JOURNAL", Season 3, Episode 36**
*"ADE'S JOURNAL", 36, COPYRIGHT 2018*
**BUSOLA ELEGBEDE, COPYRIGHT 2018**
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